The Fight.......???




The debacle has started......the shame....the loss.....the self pity...the "ohh...sorry.."
the false hopes....the dirty comments.....the sensible comments.....THE FALL.... HAS FINALLY STARTED..................The person in the picture atleast gave a fight........or did he surrender without one........!??

WUJUD
(Call-the band)

KABHEE DARD BHEE MAZA DAI
YEH GHUTAN ACHEE LAGEY
MEIN KHUD KAU ZAKHMEE KARNA CHAHTA HOON

KABHEE GIRNEY KEE KHUSHI
JALNEY KEE KHWAHISH
MEIN IS HAWAS SAI LARNA CHAHTA HOON

MUJHE APNA WUJUD CHAHIYE
IN SOCHON MEIN HOON GUM
MEIN KAB SAI

KABHEE ITNEE GARMEE KEH ROOH JAL JAYE
MEIN ISS MAUSAM KAU SEHNA CHAHTA HOON
KABHEE KHUD KAU TARPA KAR KHUD HEE KAU RULAOON
MEIN IS RONEY MEIN HANSNA CHAHTA HOON

MUJHE APNA WUJUD CHAHIYE
IN SOCHO MEIN HOON GUM
MEIN KAB SAI

KAUN HOON MEIN
KAUN HOON MEIN
KAUN HOON
KAUN HOON
KAUN HOON MEIN.......

VICTORY...!??



"There are some defeats more triumphant than victories................."
How I wish I were defeated rather than being "THE VICTORIOUS" one......
The taste of winning was bitter............its stench, untolerable............its feel.....the touch of dead wood......its effect...nauseating.....

ILLUSION...............


They say "A pleasant illusion is better than a harsh reality....." how true....!!!
The idea of people being what I want them to be is what keeps me talking to them.....wanting them.....being in their company. Many a times I wonder if thats what others feel too.....the enchanting.........the mesmerising..........the alluring........the un-answered ILLUSION....... Its the magicians trick..........The con-man's art......an actors acting.......the beauty of a far off mountain.....or.........the face of your friend.........ILL-USION..........the word itself shouts of malice.....of cowardice.......of betrayal......of venom.........of ME.....................

SHAYAD...........
(call-the band)

KAL KEE IN BAATON MEIN KIA RAKHA HAI SOCHO TAU KUCH BHEE NAHEEN SAB KHALA HAI AAJ BHEE KUCH BADLA NAHEEN KAL JAHAN THA AB BHEE HOON WAHEEN SHAYAD YEHI KISMET MEIN HAI LIKHA MANZIL NAHEEN PHIR BHEE MEIN CHAL RAHA IN SAB SAWALON MEIN KIA RAKHA HAI KYUN MEIN KUCH SOCHOON JAB SAB FANA HAI AAJ PHIR USEE MAUR PAI HOON KHARA KIS GUNAH KEE SEH RAHA HOON SAZA AAJ BHEE USEE MAUR PAI HOON KHARA KIS GUNAH KEE SEH RAHA HOON SAZA SHAYAD YEHI KISMET MEIN HAI LIKHA MANZIL NAHEEN PHIR BHEE MEIN CHAL RAHA

They call u the devil....or GOD...!!!
































Some people said they could write 3 books on me.........One of my DEVILISH intentions.....one about my SAINTLY intentions.....and the other one about my diplomacy.......all i said was OHO......my "diplomatic" answer to say the least...!!
A great man once said..."I never refuse. I contradict. I sometimes forget...." how i wish i could be the great man who said this...but alas....i am just another devil...and the devil is and always been a gentleman.....!!!
For the 2 people who said they could write a book on me.....all i can tell them is...EVEN BAD BOOKS ARE BOOKS....AND THEREFORE SACRED....!!!!!
(For the heading..........thanks to richard basch......being the egoist i am.....i am writing this in the smallest font possible....!!)

My third attempt at blogging....!!!

The first 2 attempts were retrospects of my stupidity.............hope this does not take my stupidity to a different level all together....!!!