The Fight.......???




The debacle has started......the shame....the loss.....the self pity...the "ohh...sorry.."
the false hopes....the dirty comments.....the sensible comments.....THE FALL.... HAS FINALLY STARTED..................The person in the picture atleast gave a fight........or did he surrender without one........!??

WUJUD
(Call-the band)

KABHEE DARD BHEE MAZA DAI
YEH GHUTAN ACHEE LAGEY
MEIN KHUD KAU ZAKHMEE KARNA CHAHTA HOON

KABHEE GIRNEY KEE KHUSHI
JALNEY KEE KHWAHISH
MEIN IS HAWAS SAI LARNA CHAHTA HOON

MUJHE APNA WUJUD CHAHIYE
IN SOCHON MEIN HOON GUM
MEIN KAB SAI

KABHEE ITNEE GARMEE KEH ROOH JAL JAYE
MEIN ISS MAUSAM KAU SEHNA CHAHTA HOON
KABHEE KHUD KAU TARPA KAR KHUD HEE KAU RULAOON
MEIN IS RONEY MEIN HANSNA CHAHTA HOON

MUJHE APNA WUJUD CHAHIYE
IN SOCHO MEIN HOON GUM
MEIN KAB SAI

KAUN HOON MEIN
KAUN HOON MEIN
KAUN HOON
KAUN HOON
KAUN HOON MEIN.......

VICTORY...!??



"There are some defeats more triumphant than victories................."
How I wish I were defeated rather than being "THE VICTORIOUS" one......
The taste of winning was bitter............its stench, untolerable............its feel.....the touch of dead wood......its effect...nauseating.....

ILLUSION...............


They say "A pleasant illusion is better than a harsh reality....." how true....!!!
The idea of people being what I want them to be is what keeps me talking to them.....wanting them.....being in their company. Many a times I wonder if thats what others feel too.....the enchanting.........the mesmerising..........the alluring........the un-answered ILLUSION....... Its the magicians trick..........The con-man's art......an actors acting.......the beauty of a far off mountain.....or.........the face of your friend.........ILL-USION..........the word itself shouts of malice.....of cowardice.......of betrayal......of venom.........of ME.....................